I love taking photos, videos, and essentially anything creative you can do with the two. For that very reason, I follow countless of photographers and content creators on Instagram and YouTube. I look to them as sources of inspiration and avenues to improve my own skills.
To be honest, there are some really kickass creators out there – it turns my face to the heart-eyed emoji each time I see their content. I believe they truly bring justice to the objects or places they are capturing – something I wish to be able to accomplish one day too.
Viewing such works of art provides me with major inspiration, but at the same time makes me slightly depressed about the standard I’m currently at. Somehow and inevitably, as much as I am impressed with their work, I find the standards unattainable.
I call this feeling ‘creator’s envy’ – which essentially means the envy or jealousy you feel when you see other creators’ amazing work *-* (I derived it from food envy lol)
This is not to discredit all the hard work that actually goes behind all the content that is being produced and put out there. Of course at the end of the day I know it all doesn’t come easy, many things considered.
I also do recognise that I’m already more fortunate than many others – being able to explore and photograph some amazing places outside of Singapore every year. Each time I get to travel to a new destination, I absolutely milk the creative opportunities presented to me. My travel companions as well as my full hard drive can be testaments to my time spent behind the lens.
Similar to having the brush off the pessimistic thoughts before going for each exam, I do have to brush off my feelings of envy every now and then. Some people channel feelings of inadequacy or in this case, envy, to push them to work harder. I’d like to think I can do the same.
Am I the only one who feels this way?!