What would you do if you knew you could not fail?

I got this blog title from one of those journal challenges on Pinterest. I’ve been meaning to get back to writing since January, and I thought this would be an interesting one.

I thought it would be liberating trying to imagine a world in which I would never fail. What I didn’t expect were the doubts and fear that came about when I simply thought of what I could write. I couldn’t even find the courage to pen down my aspirations in black and white because I felt stupid for even thinking them. How sad is that?

So this post has been in drafts for a really long time now. Every time I launch WordPress I see it and feel defeated. While I’ve been on my sabbatical, I’ve thought a lot about what I would do if I could not fail. I suppose the point of this whole thought process was to realise that you can do anything you set your mind to. It’s impossible to predict the future. But while we probably shouldn’t be making decisions with the blind faith that we will succeed, the fear of failure shouldn’t be what stops us either. Why would you ever want to live your life thinking about what could have been? JUST DO IT AND FIND OUT!!!

I know, easier said than done, right?

I’m saying some really inspirational shit right now, as though I have all the courage in the world. This is the tough me speaking – 14 March, 3am. This side of me doesn’t come out often, or rather, not as often as I’d like.

It is SO EASY to let yourself fall into a pit of self-doubt and pessimism, I say it with first-hand experience. I’ve been much more self-aware of my own thoughts lately. Like when I’m falling into a negative spiral, or when I’m acting out to hide feelings of inferiority. It doesn’t make it any easier to move past these patterns of behaviour, which mind you, have been CEMENTED into my (almost) 26 years of being. BUT, I’m constantly reminding myself that I can make active choices on how I respond to things, even if it means I might have to use more energy than usual to keep my mind afloat.

I always seem calm and collected, but I’m not. I freak out. I get meltdowns. I get meltdowns about my meltdowns. It’s really a shit show.

BUT ANYWAY. Here’s what I’ll do if I knew I could not fail:

• Go full-time as a freelancer, preferably specialising in portraits and couple shoots! (and even commercial shoots!)
• Get more quality travel vlogs out on Youtube! (check it out now)
• Even try regular everyday vlogs! (I love to log these daily memories but I haven’t been able to justify the effort/time required haha)

Okay I’m not going to read this more times and judge myself. And if you bothered reading this until this point, be brave and take active steps towards what you really want!!! Write it down in your notebook, on your phone (set it as your lock screen), put it on a post-it on your mirror. Do whatever you can to give yourself this constant reminder. There’s really nothing stopping you from achieving your goals; the biggest barrier is yourself! If you believe that, then you can do anything you set your mind to.

Just believe it’s true until it really is.